Alhamdulillah...

from left :- reza, ling ling, opick, me, jujue

hmmm... Alhamdulillah.. syukur to God dat i've done my presentation smoothly and as planned. ahaha.. it's quite messy at da beginning but gettin beter later, perhaps. ahahaha..

qilah help me in da sense of givin me support. lots ao cute guys are also there. ahaha.. makin me gettin out of my nerve. huhu.. par to mentally supportin me. ahaha..

so, now me in da mood of study n struggling for my final exam..

God, do help me....

ReLeased..

Ptg smalam, after finish da test,.. me asked rumates and friends to go on a walk around UMP.dunno y, since before, me like to walking around n sight seeing whenever i got depressed.. cryptic. wish it'll be incarnation. ahaha..

hahaha... so crazy things done. laughing, capturing pics, enjoy.. wish all of em can be here wif me now....

sronok gak bila tension2 cam tuh, jalan2, gelak2, makan2, tambah lemak, hahahaha...

M-E-S-S-Y!!!

huhuh.... napa laaa mesti ada exam???? so depressed!!! da examination's coming!!! huhu... Wishing da God'll listen to me...


to-do list :-
1) programming
2) math
3)cao
4)Tomorow-HOT.. huhu

ToLoNG!!!!

Huhu... conflict, conflict, conflict....

y must everybody having this word in their life?? me felt like putting myself in da drain... x sanggup dah... sakit pala pikiaq pasal neh... huhuh...

sedeyh... sakit ati... mix emo again.. hhuhu... dunia neh mmg mcm neh... slalu unexpected.. btol laaa... kdg2 Dia sembunyikan awan gelap sebab Dia nak bagi pelangi yang cantik....

InsyaAllah...

SuARa SiaPakaH iTu???

One day, i've been sleeping so tightly sampai x bangun subuh... masa tu azan baru berkumandang... aku dengar azan tu, samar2 dari kejauhan... tapi aku abaikan je.. aku jawab setiap baris azan yang berkumandang, tapi,....



Sedang aku lena tidoq, all of sudden, heard a grumpy voice... it's so scary. serious!!! takot gila... felt like crying.. suara sapa tu??? why he's yelling, shoutin, and mad at me????


"Bangun!!!!!!! Tidakkah engkau takut dengan azab kubur??? Tidakkah engkau takut dengan Allah S.W.T?????"...


Aku yang terlalu takut, tanpa berlengah terus bangun dan ke tandas... Pili air yang terlalu dingin airnya aku biarkan mengalir... dahiku berpeluh dan hati berdebar2.. terlalu takut agaknya...


Satu per satu anggota wuduk ku basahkan... sejuk.. tp kesejukan itulah yang aku selalu hilang dan x rasa... astaghfirullahalazim...


Subuh itu, bagiku merupakan subuh yang paling bermakna dalam hidup aku... pagi yang hening itu aku hiasi dengan tangisan penyesalan yang teramat sangat... Kitab suci yang sudah lama ku tinggalkan berhabuk in da locker juga ku ambil dan ku baca... terlalu jauh aku hanyut dalam kesesatan dan kegelapan...


Ya Allah, teruslah memberi petunjuk dan hidayah kepada hamba-Mu yang khilaf dan hina ini..
Hanya yang aku perlukan adalah keberkatan dan rahmat dari-Mu...

HaTiKu MiLik siAPa???

Whoa... speaking bout heart... it' complicated actually... Last 2 weeks i've been attending a talk on da title Hatiku Milik Siapa...


perasaan bercampur baur when i'm attending da talk.. i thot ther'll be so many people who going to join da program but unfortunately nope. huhu... wat a luck..


8.50 p.m
stepped into da unique mosque of UMP. invited by the sis to join da dinner. refused. Segan.


9.13 p.m
getting more x selesa n segan seing everybody wearing tudung labuh and all eyes staring at me as i'm also wearing it for the 1st time. dunno how to describe dat feeling. Segan+malu+lemah+malu sesangat+ntahlaahhhh..


9.30 p.m.
da talk began. moderator introduced da panels.
ust. suging + ust. abdullah.
1st impression on 'em = boring!!!


then when they started to talk, every words preached by their mouth, every single words were actually meaningful, interesting.


so, hatiku milik siapa???
ustaz cakap, " klo btol kita tau apa tujuan kita hidop di dunia ini, kita akan tau dan sedar hati kita milik siapa... hati kita milik Dia... kelalaian kita dan kelupaan kita pada-Nya membuatkan kita terlupa akan perkara itu... jika benarlah kita cintakan Allah melebihi segalanya, maka itulah cinta sejati... walaupun Dia mengambil org tersayang pon tidak akan menjadi masalah kpd kita kerana semua itu hanya pinjaman.."


10.47 p.m
2-way-communication session. QNA. huhu
God!!! tell me it's not real!!! Ada ke patut daripada hundreds gals yang ada, moderator tu aimed aku soh jawab soalan??? huhuh... da laaa tny pandangan tentang CINTA. ahahhaha... merepek2 ja ak answered.. huhu... da worse part was when da emcee asked me, "honestly, awak pernah bercinta tak??".. adoi... mau x merah menyala muka aku nak jawab... huhuh... niway, nice experience xtually,,....


hmmm... so, moral of da story is, just forget of getting or finding a bf or gr rite now becoz there's no such things happening. even it's juz a lie laaa... ustaz cakap lagi, klo masa couple neh, suma tipu jaa... lepas kawen baru nmpk true colors. huhuhu...

btol tu ustaz...

W_A_J_A_H

hmmm... Thanx God again... sebagai manusia, aku slalu lupa untuk bersyukur dengan apa yang diberi.. Dat's normal for a normal human like me... kadang sebagai pompuan aku terlalu terikut2 nafsu yang 9 tanpa menggunakan akal yang 1.. rupaku juga tampil dalam pelbagai reaksi... Subhanallah... indahnya ciptaan-Mu... janganlah Engkau tarik segala nikmat pancaindera yang telah Engkau kurniakan...


hmmm... keimanan dan ketaqwaan juga,,... sering berkurang dan bertambah.. alangkah bahagianya kalau kita dikurniakan hati dan keimanan seperti para malaikat... diriku ini,.. sering berada dalam kejahilan dan kekhilafan.. sayu dan sebak hati ini bila terfikirkan diriku yang bergelumang dosa ini... mengenangkan hati yang diselubungi kegelapan.. titik-titik hitam terus menodai hati ini hari demi hari.. hanya yang mampu aku lakukan adalah keeps praying to Him so that He'll give me guidance and keeps loving me..


seperti yang telah termaktub dalam al-Quran,... di hari pembalasan kelak, terdapat 3 golongan : kiri, tengah, dan kanan... harapanku adalah aku akan berada dalam golongan kanan.. tapi,, mampukah aku menongkah arus dunia yang kian dilanda kemusnahan akhlak??? mungkin aku juga salah seorang penyumbang ke arah masalah atau gejala itu... terlalu rapuh keimanan diri sehinggakan terlalu mudah untuk dipengaruhi...


Ya Allah,

Tempatkan hamba di kalangan orang2 yang beriman,
Tempatkan hamba di kalangan para kekasihmu,
Matikanlah hamba dalam agamamu,
Matikanlah hamba dalam kalimahmu,
Matikanlah hamba dalam kalimah ..... Laailahaillallah.....

Amiiinnnn....

CaMpuS LiFe??

adoi... seems like everything's startin to change when i 1st started to step in ere... no more cry, no more fun, no more freedom, no more frens, no more LIFE..

but itu dulu la.... now, as I'm spendin my life for about 5 months ere, me started to love da surroundin, da people, all nice and bad people aroud me, and even da biathcy one. akakakk...

it's da life. karma n cliche are comin and playin around us, without we even noticing their existence.. thanx GOD dat He gives such test and chances.. it's true, like da cliche says,

"sometimes He gaves us da dark cloud because He wants to give us the beautiful rainbow after it..."

and

"Today's thorn is tomorrow's flower.."...

so, i learnt a lots. as i'm growing up... meniti kehidupan... mencari diri.. cuma kekadang aku lalai dan terlupa pada Dia... K-E-H-I-D-U-P-A-N yang ku cari selama ini maseh diteruskan pencariannya... which one is my priority now?? today or hereafter??... sometimes i forgot my real intention... my promised.. If only i could see the punishments of all dat... huhuhu... Luckily i find and having those nice people around me...

ALHAMDULILLAH....

Puas???

hmmmmm... wat a great n wonderful life of mine.. yesterday, i've been out wif crazy rumates-qilah,zue,pikah. ahahaha... Gosh!!! it's so fun goin out, not thinkin about anythin' else.
we went to da mall, shoppin, flirtin, eating a lot like a cow!!! akakakaka... juz imagine how fast da money gone off my purse.. ahahaha... never mind.. as long as i'm happy n puas of wat we're doin!!! damn happy, released, hmmm....






hatiku girang,
perutku kenyang,
duitku terbang melayang,,
dalam hati bertambah sayang,
pada ruma8 yang periang,
dan juga penyayang,
bersama kita terbang,
balik tidoq terbongkang,...

ahahahaha...

RaYa LaGi!!!!

3rd of RaYa???

whoa!!! seems like all da gloomy things disapperared!!! ahahaha.. aleya, pie n my twin, intan juju went to my ous, kidnapped n went to give a visit at Ms. Nik house.. ahhhaa... seems like lots of click gonna be there!!! then we met atol, and also bond, azim, afiq adli(my fightin mate)... all of dat sweet pics of us seems to be flyin around my head..

we're spendin happy time together. as how hari raya should be.
visit other clicks' ous..
lov it..
miss it..
wish it'll happen again...

P/S :- Besties
Wish w all can live, chat, eat, sleep, bathe, do all the nit-wit things together again..
Do love each other as how we used to be years before...