HaTiKu MiLik siAPa???

Whoa... speaking bout heart... it' complicated actually... Last 2 weeks i've been attending a talk on da title Hatiku Milik Siapa...


perasaan bercampur baur when i'm attending da talk.. i thot ther'll be so many people who going to join da program but unfortunately nope. huhu... wat a luck..


8.50 p.m
stepped into da unique mosque of UMP. invited by the sis to join da dinner. refused. Segan.


9.13 p.m
getting more x selesa n segan seing everybody wearing tudung labuh and all eyes staring at me as i'm also wearing it for the 1st time. dunno how to describe dat feeling. Segan+malu+lemah+malu sesangat+ntahlaahhhh..


9.30 p.m.
da talk began. moderator introduced da panels.
ust. suging + ust. abdullah.
1st impression on 'em = boring!!!


then when they started to talk, every words preached by their mouth, every single words were actually meaningful, interesting.


so, hatiku milik siapa???
ustaz cakap, " klo btol kita tau apa tujuan kita hidop di dunia ini, kita akan tau dan sedar hati kita milik siapa... hati kita milik Dia... kelalaian kita dan kelupaan kita pada-Nya membuatkan kita terlupa akan perkara itu... jika benarlah kita cintakan Allah melebihi segalanya, maka itulah cinta sejati... walaupun Dia mengambil org tersayang pon tidak akan menjadi masalah kpd kita kerana semua itu hanya pinjaman.."


10.47 p.m
2-way-communication session. QNA. huhu
God!!! tell me it's not real!!! Ada ke patut daripada hundreds gals yang ada, moderator tu aimed aku soh jawab soalan??? huhuh... da laaa tny pandangan tentang CINTA. ahahhaha... merepek2 ja ak answered.. huhu... da worse part was when da emcee asked me, "honestly, awak pernah bercinta tak??".. adoi... mau x merah menyala muka aku nak jawab... huhuh... niway, nice experience xtually,,....


hmmm... so, moral of da story is, just forget of getting or finding a bf or gr rite now becoz there's no such things happening. even it's juz a lie laaa... ustaz cakap lagi, klo masa couple neh, suma tipu jaa... lepas kawen baru nmpk true colors. huhuhu...

btol tu ustaz...

W_A_J_A_H

hmmm... Thanx God again... sebagai manusia, aku slalu lupa untuk bersyukur dengan apa yang diberi.. Dat's normal for a normal human like me... kadang sebagai pompuan aku terlalu terikut2 nafsu yang 9 tanpa menggunakan akal yang 1.. rupaku juga tampil dalam pelbagai reaksi... Subhanallah... indahnya ciptaan-Mu... janganlah Engkau tarik segala nikmat pancaindera yang telah Engkau kurniakan...


hmmm... keimanan dan ketaqwaan juga,,... sering berkurang dan bertambah.. alangkah bahagianya kalau kita dikurniakan hati dan keimanan seperti para malaikat... diriku ini,.. sering berada dalam kejahilan dan kekhilafan.. sayu dan sebak hati ini bila terfikirkan diriku yang bergelumang dosa ini... mengenangkan hati yang diselubungi kegelapan.. titik-titik hitam terus menodai hati ini hari demi hari.. hanya yang mampu aku lakukan adalah keeps praying to Him so that He'll give me guidance and keeps loving me..


seperti yang telah termaktub dalam al-Quran,... di hari pembalasan kelak, terdapat 3 golongan : kiri, tengah, dan kanan... harapanku adalah aku akan berada dalam golongan kanan.. tapi,, mampukah aku menongkah arus dunia yang kian dilanda kemusnahan akhlak??? mungkin aku juga salah seorang penyumbang ke arah masalah atau gejala itu... terlalu rapuh keimanan diri sehinggakan terlalu mudah untuk dipengaruhi...


Ya Allah,

Tempatkan hamba di kalangan orang2 yang beriman,
Tempatkan hamba di kalangan para kekasihmu,
Matikanlah hamba dalam agamamu,
Matikanlah hamba dalam kalimahmu,
Matikanlah hamba dalam kalimah ..... Laailahaillallah.....

Amiiinnnn....

CaMpuS LiFe??

adoi... seems like everything's startin to change when i 1st started to step in ere... no more cry, no more fun, no more freedom, no more frens, no more LIFE..

but itu dulu la.... now, as I'm spendin my life for about 5 months ere, me started to love da surroundin, da people, all nice and bad people aroud me, and even da biathcy one. akakakk...

it's da life. karma n cliche are comin and playin around us, without we even noticing their existence.. thanx GOD dat He gives such test and chances.. it's true, like da cliche says,

"sometimes He gaves us da dark cloud because He wants to give us the beautiful rainbow after it..."

and

"Today's thorn is tomorrow's flower.."...

so, i learnt a lots. as i'm growing up... meniti kehidupan... mencari diri.. cuma kekadang aku lalai dan terlupa pada Dia... K-E-H-I-D-U-P-A-N yang ku cari selama ini maseh diteruskan pencariannya... which one is my priority now?? today or hereafter??... sometimes i forgot my real intention... my promised.. If only i could see the punishments of all dat... huhuhu... Luckily i find and having those nice people around me...

ALHAMDULILLAH....

Puas???

hmmmmm... wat a great n wonderful life of mine.. yesterday, i've been out wif crazy rumates-qilah,zue,pikah. ahahaha... Gosh!!! it's so fun goin out, not thinkin about anythin' else.
we went to da mall, shoppin, flirtin, eating a lot like a cow!!! akakakaka... juz imagine how fast da money gone off my purse.. ahahaha... never mind.. as long as i'm happy n puas of wat we're doin!!! damn happy, released, hmmm....






hatiku girang,
perutku kenyang,
duitku terbang melayang,,
dalam hati bertambah sayang,
pada ruma8 yang periang,
dan juga penyayang,
bersama kita terbang,
balik tidoq terbongkang,...

ahahahaha...

RaYa LaGi!!!!

3rd of RaYa???

whoa!!! seems like all da gloomy things disapperared!!! ahahaha.. aleya, pie n my twin, intan juju went to my ous, kidnapped n went to give a visit at Ms. Nik house.. ahhhaa... seems like lots of click gonna be there!!! then we met atol, and also bond, azim, afiq adli(my fightin mate)... all of dat sweet pics of us seems to be flyin around my head..

we're spendin happy time together. as how hari raya should be.
visit other clicks' ous..
lov it..
miss it..
wish it'll happen again...

P/S :- Besties
Wish w all can live, chat, eat, sleep, bathe, do all the nit-wit things together again..
Do love each other as how we used to be years before...

hARi rAYaku ??

wah... mcm2 lgu rya di corong2 radio..
i'm just makin myself bz on da hr rya coz i wanna 4get all probs of mine..

8.00 a.m ( 20/09/2009)
went 2 da mosque wif mu family. pray. listen to da spreech. "maka bila berlalunya ramadhan, adakah kita tersenyum gembira seperti yg lain atau kita menangis kesedihan kerana adakah lg kesempatan untuk kita bertemu lagi dgn ramadhan seterusnya?" this is a cut of sentence said by the Imam.. suddenly my eyes started to glimmered n a hot drops of tears creepin on my cheeks...
do i still hve the chance??.... wallahualam...

10.00 a.m
ziarah 'ayah', n 'family' ...
so sad s i saw my lil bro menaburkan bunga di atas pusara ayah...
dia mseh terlalu kecil semasa ayah pejamkan mata... masih blom smpat merasa kseh syg dr a man called AYAH... couldnt hold da tears again..

seterusnya, i went through my hari raya gloomily...
tidoq bla smpi umah... meaningless 4 me... like it hav no more fun...

Ya Allah..
ku mengharapkan ramadhan yg sempurna dan berharga buatku di tahun hadapan...
semoga hari rayaku akan menjadi lebih bermakna...

why do i always break my promises towards HIM??

why do i never realize and grateful for what HE gives me??

why? i'm searching..

why do i always can't do it???

findin' myself in the dark and gloomy nite..